Saturday, May 14, 2011

Father In Law - Update

My Father in Law is in ICU and doing very poorly. I am not God, and I do not know if my father in law will pull through. My Father in law is hooked up to all kinds of tubes and machines. He can't talk because he is on a respirator. He is also heavily sedated.

He is a very strong man, a different breed much like my dad. If anyone could pull through it would be him. My father in law is in ICU. The hospital rule is, they only let immediate family in for a very short amount of time. Although I have lied and said I was his daughter so I could get in to see him. My mother in law and some of her daughters are camping out in the hospital waiting room. 

I guess everyone has to deal with death and the act of dying in their own way, but I think everyone should agree with my prospective. I don't think anyone should die alone. I know people do all the time. To me that is very sad. I am of the theory that even when someone is unconscious or heavily sedated, they can still hear you, and they feel  your presents at that moment. There is no proof of my theory. When I went to ICU last night I held my father in laws hand, I told him that I was praying for him, he got a tear in his eye and it rolled down his cheek. That was tough to deal with.

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Nothing I can do now but worry. Will worry add one hour to my life or his? no. I have also been praying, but mostly worrying. What, you may ask are you worried about? I am not worried about his afterlife, but I worry about him suffering, I worry about my mother in law and how she will cope, I worry about his condition and I hope someone will let us know as soon as anything happens good or bad. I worry about how Mrs. F will react. She had a very hard time when my 2 mom died.

Update: My father in law is going back in for surgery tomorrow morning.  The doctors seem to think he will recover in "about a week."


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